Waiting

I can’t even pretend to have focus. Well I can but it’s fleeting.
There has never been a date like this November 3rd that I’ve waited for with as much trepidation and furtive hope. I nurture it clandestinely and try to go about business as usual.

I made carrot soup with ginger and turmeric. The zing thrilled my cells and the vibrant color lifted my mood. I forgot to take a picture.
I am having another love/hate moment with social media.
I have five books in rotation but can’t say I am actively reading any of them. See above re: focus.
One night I stayed up too late reading old New Yorker magazines. I miss my apartment.
I took a long walk in the cool fall air and marveled at the leaves and all their colors. I haven’t been back outside for two days.
I’ve forgotten a couple of meals but I meditate every morning.
I thought about buying a sweatshirt for $80 because the company would provide five meals to communities in need. I made a donation to the Food Bank instead.
I have to find a present for nephew 1’s upcoming birthday.
I will get outside tomorrow and get it done.

Getting it done is not impossible. Some things are just easier to do than others. Avoiding a challenging conversation can require dexterity. But working on an audition is fun. Playing with different accents for an audition and an upcoming role was a great reprieve.
Some tasks have been deferred but I got the laundry done.
I forgot to make a list one day but I know what needs to get done. How do you keep focus when your brain is sabotaged by a thousand things? Not a rhetorical question. Asking for a friend. Seriously please share your life hacks.

There’s a family birthday every week of November. I’m looking forward to celebrations and cake. We should all have cake and celebrations this November.
Signing off with bated breath.