I booked a gig. Big yay.Biggest yay though? Getting back a negative Covid test. I am cleared to step onto set.The 36 hour wait was interminable, and a great privilege. There’s so much to unpack about the experience but I’ll have to come back to that. For now, I just want to make a cocoon out of this good news. The dual layers of it. I want to burrow into imagination and wonder. I want Read more
I shut down yesterday. Body and soul reached their saturation points. Soul exhaustion was the diagnosis. Ears couldn’t listen to another rant. Eyes couldn’t watch any more. I’ve seen enough to know that justice is not blind. She wears an eye patch, pillaging hope like Captain Morgan. One eye always on the prize.The hand that holds the gold tips the scale. One eye. Squinting, failing to focus, incapable of clear vision. Maybe she’s blatantly winking. Read more
“It’s like a hall pass for bad birthday behaviour, and other ish.” me, yesterday Who doesn’t love celebrating a birthday? There are very few questions that have unanimous answers, but look at the question. Even if you don’t enjoy celebrating your own birthday there is someone you love to celebrate and find the perfect gift for. I love love love scoring a one-of-a-kind found-by-kismet present for my sister. I used to love outdoing myself on Read more
“Oh, one more thing..“What?”Click. The line went dead. And so he has the last word. Negating all the words that came before. Click and zip. Zero. Nada. He cuts the connection and literally silences my argument. I am left seething in a void. There is no calling back, the phone will not be answered. The conversation is done. He was a bully. I didn’t recognize it then. I just thought he was a temperamental asshole.It Read more
2020 has been a beast of a year, and we’ve still got a third left. I don’t dare ask what’s next. I’m confounded by the deaths of the Black Mamba and the Black Panther in a world reeling with loss. My pain flares anew at memes that question whether my Blackness matters. The last days of summer are heavy in their hotness. The humidity was 81 percent today. I kept forgetting what day it was. Read more
“Wow” she whispered. It was going to be like that. Rude awakenings. Quite literally discovering ugly truths about your new lover before the coffee was cold in the cup. Leesa’s coffee always went cold. She didn’t really love coffee truth be told, but it was the one social libation she could keep up with, cocktails required too much strategizing. She swirled the milky dregs listening to the shower run on the other side of the Read more
Rage. I was all set to write about rage and then something washed over me. Grace? Probably not. Probably fatigue. I’m spent, what with all the raging. I remember that there’s a new moon, maybe it transited to a benevolent position when I sat down to write. I want to believe in cosmic forces and benevolent tides. I want to believe in justice served. But it too often arrives cold. Not quite as advertised. Like Read more
There is a picture, in a box, in a basement, of a little girl that could be this little girl. She is also a little brown girl with a Jamaican father and Asian bloodlines. Her hair is in two identical braids held in place with the same baubles. The baubles come in packs of ten; five sets of colours stretched across a cardboard insert. The photo is also black and white so the colours are Read more